it's hard to decide right from wrong when both looks the same.
the difference lies in what you're feeling. difficult thing to distinguish, when you seem to not feel anything at all. it's not that bad. there's something left of your emotions, i am sure.
the sky is open. you are free to do whatever you want.
(yes, i know. you think this is ridiculous. but think about that: there's been times in your life, when this was not the case. it SHOULD have been the case (not talking idealism here), but it WASN'T... one of your favourite mistakes - to orientate yourself by desired conditions, and not by your actual state.)